Table Tennis or Floorball

Yay an update because I have nothing better to do!

Yesterday I caught Ironman 3 with my classmates. The movie was awesome. :B Still prefer cartoons though. Hahaha. What a kid.

Anyway, life has been boring. So boring that I'm taking regular naps now. HAHAHA because sleeping is the only thing I can do. I could read or write but I'm lazy. :P Lazy to read, don't know what to write. Hahaha!

I had table tennis trials today! It was cool. I honestly don't know why I signed up for it since I've never played it before. The only time I played it was with my mom and it was such a fail. But today's trials went better than I expected. I would love to stay in table tennis but I've signed up for floorball as well and I'd like to see how it goes over there first. :)

It's not that I'm not committed or anything, it's just that I don't want to commit myself to something so new yet. Floorball is also a new sport to me and well, I wanna try that out before making a judgement on which I'll choose, y'know?

I'm still sad how there isn't any basketball. :/ Oh well. Then I just hope Bryanne calls me out soon or something. Then again, she has A's so.... :( Damn it, why is everyone busy?!

CCA Fair

Hey! So I haven't blogged in awhile... :/ The days passed really quickly and it's already Wednesday. I guess because I'm enjoying myself in school.

I officially hate Tuesdays and Thursdays. Tuesdays classes always seem to crawl and Thursdays just suck because there's Gen Ed. Gr...

I'm tired. I've been working on the Cinderella story thing and... Well, we're done. Just have to work on the presentation now. Yay! Urgh, presentations... I just can't talk to crowds... :P

Today has been the day I've been anticipating for so long. I signed myself up for Table Tennis and Floorball. Hahaha! I searched high and low for the Basketball booth but... I couldn't find it. :( Life's sad. I was actually looking forward to shoot again. :/ Shall try to find it again tomorrow or something even though I know very well it's not going to magically appear. HAHAHA.

Anyway, Floorball is twice a week and Table Tennis is once a week. Yay! So I'll just wait for the try outs before I choose which to go with. Although I think I might be better at Floorball than Table Tennis. HAHAHA.

The fair was really crowded and I was perspiring like no tomorrow. D: After which, some of my classmates and I went to the Hilltop Haven to watch The Croods. Okay fine, only some of us did. The rest did their own stuff, I guess. The air conditioning is soooooo good. Hahahah!

I've yet to do my blog entry homework and so I guess I'll have to do that now since it's due today.... :P Okay, I blame myself for putting it off for so long. Oh well. It's really difficult to write okay.... D:

Heroes, Myths and Legends

Today would probably be the best day of the week apart from the morning lecture. D: After we were released from lecture, it was raining. *groans* The rain and I can never go together.

Anyway, I had lunch with my classmates and there was this guy who sat in front of me (not from my course) who ate really fast... :O He chugged down his bottle of water as well and left the table while still chewing... Omg...

Best lesson to end of the week: Heroes, Myths and Legends.

We watched this lame cartoon. I can see the heroic elements but the voice acting is horrible. Putting aside the animation since it was a cartoon from the 1980s but the idea was kinda lame too. :/

After class, I went off with my groupmates to plan our Cinderella story and we finally went with Wesley's idea. Can't wait for next week! Hmm. I have this homework to do about the most powerful world to me and... I really don't know. Shall go brainstorm now.

GE sucks

I decided I'm just going to talk about my lessons for the week so I wouldn't bore you with the same shit every day. Mwahahaha! Okay, blogging is beginning to become addictive. I have some good news but I'll say it later.

Today's first tutorial was called Writing Across Media Platforms. I was initially nervous for this class because we heard a lot about the teacher and well, scared lah. But it wasn't as bad as it seems. The lesson turned out way more fun than I thought. A lot of games and who hates lessons that has games (so long as the games are not boring)?

I learnt quite a bit too. Things like traditional media, new media and mainstream media, evaluating information from the web, and what is misinformation and disinformation. Okay, I'm boring everyone with the terms. But just thought you (Phoebe) should know if you wanted to join my course. Hahaha!

Lunch was horrible. Everywhere was so packed! I was dying of hunger but the crowd was just killing my appetite. We settled for Macs and rushed our meal before running off for our General Education (GE) lecture.

Omg, I've a bad feeling about GE... First of all, the teacher is kinda boring and second of all, GE sounds difficult. We have to present every week and well, I'm not good at presenting. I guess I'll get used to it later on but for now, let's just say I hate facing crowds. I rather just type out the essay and hand it in without having to show my face, you know? Hahahaha! But I know that's out of the question in the working world.

What is GE about? Well it's something about logical and creative thinking? There are four modules and we're currently on media. Erm... At the end of every lesson, we have to present out argument to a certain topic. Omg... And this GE is compulsory for everyone regardless of your course. Sigh.

Anyway, remember I said I had some good news? Well it's only one. I find myself laughing at stupid things again! :D I do not believe in the saying that the people who laugh the most are the saddest. That is dumb because as far as I know, I am not a sad person. Well, not anymore. Yay! I'm me again. Or at least that's what I think is me. ._.

TV

I feel like a retard blogging almost every single day about class... But I'm gonna do it anyway!

Classes start at 8am today so I had to wake up really early. But guess what? It was raining! My mom then offered to give me a ride to the MRT station. :) Since it was raining heavily, everywhere I turned there was a traffic jam. You might think even the trains might be faster but no... It kept slowing down and stopping.

I met up with Colin and Nadhirah, and we waited for the rest to arrive. Hasinah and Hema came later and we rushed off to class. Hahahaha! So we had to go down this escalator, right? Naturally when you're late for class you would walk down the escalator as it moves? Hema and I did that. We turned around and guess where were the other three? Standing at the side of the escalator as it descends. HAHAHAHAHA!

Anyway, we have this grace period of 15 minutes so if you enter the class later than 8.15am, you'll be marked absent. I hate running late for class especially when you have to climb this hill every single morning. We were still walking down the corridor (our classroom was at the end) before I looked at the clock and it was already 8.14am. Only then did we run. Hahahaha! It was so funny. To me, at least.

Class today was Deconstructing Television. I learnt a couple of things about TV. How entertainment had evolve from newspapers to radios to television. I also saw a clip of how they invented the TV. It was kinda cool. We were then divided into teams to research about the TV in different times and then presenting it to the class.

Yay! Class ended at 11am! Went to collect my new ez-link card before joining my other classmates for lunch.

When I got home, it was about 1.30pm. Okay, being the retard I am, I was wondering why is it still so early and then I remembered we ended class at 11am. .____. HAHAHAHA.

I've got a piece of homework today and you'll never guess what it is. The teacher (I know poly don't call them teachers but I'm gonna call them that cos it's easier) told us to watch TV. Hahahaha!

Tomorrow would be my first lecture. I shall see how that goes! Now off to play some music. :P

First Lesson, First Assignment

First and only lesson of today: Creative Story Making which lasted for four hours. From 10am to 2pm.

Well first lessons are always draggy. You know where we set the ground rules and things like that. We did play this story telling game. Hahaha! After which we had a 20 minute break! The second half of the lesson was about the history of story telling and fairy tales. It was kind of interesting.

The four hours flew by in a flash! Guess what? We got our first assignment! It's our CA1 that's due in week 4. D: We're to create another Cinderella story in our groups. Oh man. So far, what my groupmates and I have planned didn't go too well.

Yay for no homework, yet. I had lunch with my classmates before heading off with Bernice to the Hilltop library to chat. Mwahahaha! Okay enough about my day. It's probably boring everyone to sleep. I look forward to tomorrow! Visual Communication, here I come! I think we're going to use Adobe Photoshop. :D I hope it'll be fun. I hope every lesson would be fun.

All lies

As a worshipper of truth (lol), I hate it when people try to comfort me with lies. I never comfort myself with lies. Ever.

I hate it when somebody says "Don't take the judge's word to heart. You're still awesome," or "You're still amazing no matter what they say." The judges are a judge for a reason. You should care what they think because those are the people who determine how good you are in that particular area.

I had a talk in school a few days ago and a particular sentence made me cringe. "I am not defined by a number." Well, it's true. But do you realize something? It's only people who didn't achieve what they had set for themselves or people who didn't do well that say that. Do you see a scholar saying that he/she is not defined by a number? I haven't seen one like that. All lies. It's just something you would say to comfort yourself.

That is one of the many things I hate about human beings. When you do well, you feel that you're smart and talented enough. However, when you do badly or not up to expectations, you say to yourself that it's just a grade or number and it does not define how talented or smart you are. Dumb, right?

I also don't like it when people fail and say that all their hard work went down the drain and that it was all for nothing. No, it was not for nothing. It was just not enough. There is more to success than just hard work.

In this world, just being able to work hard doesn't cut it. If it was a dance, maybe the choreography wasn't impressive. If it was a piece of writing, maybe your ideas just weren't as creative as the others. If it was your studies, maybe it was your way of studying. Not everyone can mug. If it was a sport, maybe your training was just too bloody slack. I know of one that is like that. -.-

I know you gave it your best so there's really nothing you can do about it. I hate to say this but,

"Try harder next time."

Just put in more effort the next time round. The competition is really tough these days. While you're working hard, everyone else is working twice as hard. So what if you're a hard worker? Anyone can work hard. It's just whether they want to or not.

It's really scary, you know. If you want to find a job, yeah sure, get a degree. But the thing is, today, almost everyone has a degree so you have to ask yourself, "What makes you any different from the rest? What do you have to offer? Why should they employ you?"

Omg, I'm going way off topic but yeah. You get my drift. It sucks, right? Living in a planet called Earth. The truth is, no one here is ever good enough and that is scary. As all of us try to be "good enough", we never stop working.

Sometimes I feel like, we're born into this world just to work like dogs and we never truly get to enjoy life. Come on, we spend 1/3 of our lives studying and the other 2/3 of it working. Just working and studying until the day we die. Sad, isn't it?

Hence, I think it's important to choose your future job wisely... You're gonna be stuck with it for a long, long time. You might think I'll get to enjoy life after retirement, but you're old. Some of you might not even be able to walk anymore. How is that enjoying life? Some old people aren't even allowed to travel. And what is life if you can't go abroad?

Tree Hugger

The day started out really boring. My bus got delayed but lucky for me, I still managed to get there on time. I shall not talk about the beginning of the day due to the boring-ness. We went to Gardens by the Bay for our Art Jam later on. I honestly don't know how does one get inspiration from flowers.

I, for one, never get my inspiration from flowers. As much as I love nature, I hate flowers. Probably the only girl that does.

Anyway, our class decided to draw our hands. Sigh, I thought our previous ideas were a lot better than a hand. So I drew my hand and in it I drew a tree because I'm a tree hugger. I should really consider joining the Environment Club. Hahahaha!

The walk from Gardens by the Bay to freaking Bayfront MRT is super far. I died. I am really unfit. Really nothing much to update about today... :/ Just that I think it's harder to communicate with some of my classmates since they talk about things I'm not into. And it's not just a few but a lot of them seem to know what going on and I'm just there like, "What?"

Oh well, I guess this is one of the cons of being the minority of the teenage population. *laughs* The things I'm into are really weird. If poly was like the cliche college movies, I would be that geek who collects Star Wars figurines and own several companion guides to video games (I don't watch Star Wars by the way).


It's only the second day and I'm already exhausted traveling from East to West. Gah!! And to think I would have to do this for the next three years. Fml. I'm just thanking the high heavens I don't stay in Pasir Ris or something. I feel for those who stays in the North or South. Argh, as long as you're not staying in the West, life sucks.

First Days

I really hate first days. My hate for the human race has risen over the holidays due to so many bad news, I actually dreaded to see more people today. I felt like I have just been dragged out from under a rock and into civilization.

So I got lost. No surprise in that. As much as I hated asking for directions, I was alone and I really needed to get to class and so I asked. After being directed, I bumped into one of my seniors whom I haven't seen in a long, long time.

I was brought to class later on and it was really awkward. Everyone was so quiet. I took a seat and my first sentence to the girl beside me was, "Why is everyone so quiet?" So much for starting a conversation. *laughs*

Everyone was on their phone... As soon as the facilitator mention something about some show or something (like I said, I lived under a rock), there was a sudden outburst of murmurings all about that show. I was the only alien there that doesn't understand a thing.

We adjusted to one another and had icebreakers, after which we had to go to the hall for talks and games with the whole school. I found it relatively okay... The games reminded me of the ones we played when I was in drama.

If I could make a suggestion, hide and seek catching would be awesome, or just hide and seek. Best game ever. I've come to the conclusion that I'm neither girly nor tomboy, I'm just kiddy. Really kiddy. All of my new friends are probably going to freak out.

Anyway, I've met new people (duh). They're really cool. I'm beginning to like this class and just the thought of spending 3 years together, wow. I just hope nothing bad happens. As I've said before, I'm a magnet for bad luck. Primary school life and secondary school life were shit so I'm really hoping for something different this time round.

Tomorrow, we're going to Gardens by the Bay to paint. I'm horrible at drawing, let alone painting. Remember how I said I hate flowers? I'm going to be surrounded by them tomorrow. Yay life.

Everyone's going to watch me as I fail as an artist. I just hope tomorrow I would miraculously turn into Leonardo Da Vinci or Pablo Picasso (these are probably the only two painters I know. Yes, I lack that much general knowledge).

Tell me why

Phoebe pointed out that I always make decisions that I end up regretting... Why is that? Sometimes I really don't know what I'm thinking. I know what I want in life, I just don't know which is a better way to get there. I know two things I want: Bachelor's Degree in Journalism (hopefully in the UK or local university) and MBA. Just in case my writer thing doesn't work out, I can fall back on business. Hahaha!

Anyway, one of the regrets I made in life was joining drama and netball. -.- I question myself to this very day. Can you believe I actually wanted to leave drama for netball? Thank God Bryanne convinced me to join basketball instead.

One of my regrets include not going to NA in Temasek Secondary or some other better school. I just had to choose Express. I also don't know why so many people look down on NA and MI students. Yeah sure, everyone wants to graduate faster but having an extra year to study the syllabus is like a privilege to me. 4 years for O's and 2 years for A's is too crammed, especially A's. Unless I'm some child prodigy (which I will never be).

I talked to Bryanne earlier today and MI really doesn't seem that bad. In fact, if I had a choice between YJC and MI, I'd pick MI. 3 years for an A level certificate so what? I would have more time to prepare myself and hence all the more I should be able to do better than the normal students.

Anyway, after hearing about MI, I was kinda thinking if I even made the right choice to go poly. :/ I know, now isn't really the time to have second thoughts since I would be having orientation on Monday, but you know, just wondering how life would be like. And I really like to wear uniform. Save myself the headache every morning.

So yeah... I kinda regret not going to MI even though my mom tried to talk me into it the last time... Oh well what can I do?

Actually, I'm totally fine with the modules that my course would be covering. It sounds great! I'm looking forward to learning about the whole myths and legends thing. However, I just don't like how I don't know how the GPA works and how hard it would actually be to get a GPA above 3.5. At least with the A levels, I would be more familiar with their grading system. I know they would probably go through all the poly details during orientation but they should have it earlier so I would know what to expect you know? And if I wanted any transfer I could do so immediately and not wait until freaking April. -.-

Another worry for me in poly would be the irregular timetables. I tend to forget things really easily so it's going to take me a lot of time to get used to the irregularity.

Poly is also more of application I think whereas studying for A's would just be mugging. Since I just ended my O's, so I'm still in a mugging mood and I kinda would like to continue with the whole mugging thing.

For some lucky people like those in the science course, you can actually study and mug for the exam. For me, how am I going to study writing? I don't even know where to start.

The biggest concern of mine would be university applications. A levels are internationally recognized and since I plan to go overseas to study, I don't really know if they would accept my diploma... And I'm very worried about that. Also I would need to get a really high GPA to apply for local university and I don't think I'm that smart so I guess getting accepted into a local university would need a miracle.

Since writing is my dream, if I don't do well, it would crush me like a berry. I'd be force to give up my dream and perhaps drop out of poly and start to take A levels and try to get into law school or something. -.- Life is sad. I am so weird. Most people drop out of A levels to go to poly and I'm dropping out of poly to go take A's. I'm just saying if I have a horrendous GPA and can't go anywhere.

I'm not going to look so far into the future because things never ever go as planned. My whole path of scoring 5 for O's and heading to VJC then going to University of Exeter or applying for Exeter's foundation studies totally did not work out.

1) I missed VJC's cut off by a mile (I expected it though I had hoped to do a lot better)
2) I didn't meet the requirements for the foundation. I WAS THIS CLOSE. Damn you bio. If you were an A, I wouldn't be in this position now. (I'm hella stupid, right? -.-)

And again, I've gotten something I never planned on getting in the first place. I remember how I've never considered poly and here I am waiting for orientation. Life is so unpredictable. Oh well, at least I'll still be doing something I like and hopefully it wouldn't be a dream crusher.

Certs~

I went back to school today to collect my O Level certificate with Claire. Lucky for us, the timing we chose happened to be the same as Phoebe's recess, so we met up with her and chatted for awhile. I also saw some of my juniors. I still find it hard to believe that they'll be taking their O's this year. Hahaha!

Looking back, school was more of a place full of frustrations, sadness and anger. I've never really felt all that happy there. Maybe I'm just weird. I don't think I'll ever miss the place. My frustrations are mainly the reason why.

I hate the holding school. The fact that the canteen is so small pisses me off and I hate the banning of fried food. Argh!

Of course I've met people that I will keep forever then again I've met people who are... Hmm... Let's just say they weren't very nice.

Anyway, I wanna tell a really retarded story that happened today. I didn't bring a big-enough bag with me so I dumped the certificate with Claire. She was reluctant at first because she said I would forget it. I assured her that I wouldn't and so she kept it for me. After lunch and all that senseless talking, I went on to the interchange and waited for the bus.

Being the retard that I am, I forgot about the certificate and being the retard that Claire is, she also forgot about it. It was only until I reached home and she reached her workplace when I received a text from her about the certificate... Hahahaha! So I had to go back and find her. Talk about stupid.

Another thing I wanna talk about today is missing posters of pets. Yeah sure, posters of lost dogs and cats are fine but posters of missing birds? No offense, but that is kinda dumb. Once a bird flies away, it's really difficult to get them back.

And who would be so free to look out for birds that fly high in the sky? I think I'll be blind just looking up to face the glaring sun. Even if I did spot the missing bird, how am I going to catch it? If it was a missing dog, at least I could lure it with some food and leash it up. How am I going to catch a bird? Specifically buy a bird cage just to catch it? It would've flown away.

Sorry to burst your bubble but a lost bird is as good as dead.

Oh! If any of you own dogs, I think dog farts are intolerable. Who'd knew such a cute puffball could unleash such a stink bomb? So gross...

Anyway, I'll be meeting Bryanne for dinner tomorrow! Really looking forward to that since I haven't seen her in ages! I'd love to see what JC has done to her! I feel like everyone's busy except me. Not that I'm complaining or anything.

I love the feeling of waking up and not having to worry about studying or going to work. I love planning what to do for the day even though most of the time it doesn't go accordingly... :P

If I were her

Remember when I said I hated romance and I only had a few exceptions? Well anyone heard of Wattpad? So this book was really popular on wattpad and it was one of the first few books I ever got to read there and guess what? This writer got published and when I saw her book on the shelf, in the spur of the moment, I bought it. I still question myself to this very day why I did that. -.-

Anyway, I finally got the chance to start it and in the first few chapters of the book, I found myself questioning the girl's actions. No offense but it seems to me like almost every girl in a vampire novel is either useless, weak or uninteresting. In my opinion, I found Bella in both the novel and the movie, such a boring character.

This book about some girl who is kidnapped by a vampire prince and then tried to resist his good looks etc and eventually falls in love with him. How original. The book is really not my cup of tea (again I ask myself why did I ever buy it).

There was this part where this guy asked a really stupid question and he's really cocky. I'm already hating him. He asked "Do you lust for me?" Oh man, what kind of question is that. This girl then proceeds to say "No" (duh) and then this vamp started saying "Oh then why is your heart beating so fast and your palms are sweaty etc etc".

Then he says that he has good looks etc. (see? cocky) and that the girl was resisting his charms etc. He went on about how the girl doesn't fear him and he was going to make her fear him. Really retarded, I know.

I was already rolling my eyes at that chapter. Anyway, the vampires trapped the girl in the house because she had witness them commit a crime and they would detain her in their house forever until she decided to become one of them. So why I decided to blog about this was because I began to think of what I would do I was in her position. I swear, I am smarter than most heroines in vampire novels (self praise).

Imagine Carmen Chan being whisked away to a vampire's home because I just witness a bunch of vampires murder a bunch of people, what do I do? Being a sensible human being, I would question them about it. You can't expect me to jump to conclusions just because they're vampires, right (btw, the girl in the book accused them of murder and how those vampires were jerks etc.)?

Anyway, the girl tried to escape. What a dumb move. If I were her I wouldn't even think about escaping. We're talking about vampires here, what idiot would try to run? Everyone knows you can never outrun a vampire.

Again, I would never try to defy them. Instead, I'll try to be friends with them. Come on, being friends with vampires have its benefits. Vampires are rich, no? Since they're trying to detain you in the house forever, I thought maybe being friends with them would mean I would get to their soft side. I get to hear vampire history (who isn't interested in that) and I would definitely ask them to buy me gaming consoles to keep me company because obviously they're not going to give me a laptop or any kind of device capable of communicating with the outside world. And yes, they confiscated the girl's phone.

So apart from a laptop or phone, gaming consoles would definitely be one of the things that will kill my boredom. Oh, it'd be fun to play hide and seek in a big mansion too. They have a lot of vampires living in their mansion. Playing those human games would bound to excite them too. I wouldn't mind playing board games with a bunch of blood suckers.

Like the main character, I was given two choices. Either I stay with them forever or become one of them. I am really not keen on giving up my humanity because I really hate the taste of blood but with those two choices, I would try to negotiate on something reasonable but if it fails, I would then choose to become one of them.

Why? Because I want to go home! The mansion is cool but I would obviously be homesick so becoming one of them would solve most of my troubles and I would get my phone back so yeah. Besides I would be able to join them on hunts and I would hunt down bad guys! Talk about killing two birds with one stone. Ridding the world of crimes and filling my thirst for blood.

After I become a vampire, I'll be almost immortal then I'll head home and turn my whole family and close friends into vampires and we'll be immortal together and live the rest of our days together. What a perfect plan.

Am I the best heroine in a vampire novel or what (self praise again)? I swear, if I were to write a vampire novel, it would be like that. Minus the romance. ;)

Erm hi

I was about to go to bed last night and I saw my dog snoring away on the floor so I wondered how was it that he's not cold? Then I began to wonder how it's like to have fur... It was really random but at least they weren't scary thoughts or anything like that. Some nights, for me, can be really scary... :O Oh well.

I realized my blog contains a lot of complaints about human beings but I can't help it that I am that unsatisfied with humanity. Look, North and South Korea are in a state of war and they are sending threats to the USA? I don't really know but I hope it doesn't escalate to a full-scale war. That would be really sad and I'll hate people even more. I mean, I read up about it in the news and in my opinion, I just think it's kinda...

I really hate reading about fights, riots, wars etc. I just think that there are better solutions to the problems than just fighting and most of the cases are just people being overly-sensitive. But that's my opinion. :)

So in about a week's time, I'll be starting school. D: I feel kinda excited for the long train rides because then I'll be able to read my book however, I am not excited because I really hate going to school and it's very inconvenient for me to travel there. Oh well, I'll have to suck it up and just go, right? Three years of poly, here I come........................... D:

Speaking of school... I don't know how am I going to get up... My body clock is screwed up. I sleep in the morning, just before dawn and wake up only in the afternoon. I have completely forgotten how a sunrise looks like. I have one week to set my body clock right. Oh how I'm gonna miss late night surfing...

Anyway, I haven't posted a picture in awhile so here, 2 random pictures from USS (best day ever):